Abide with me

Abide with me; fast falls the eventide;
The darkness deepens; Lord with me abide.
When other helpers fail and comforts flee,
Help of the helpless, O abide with me.
Swift to its close ebbs out life’s little day;
Earth's joys grow dim; its glories pass away;
Change and decay in all around I see;
O Thou who changest not, abide with me.
Not a brief glance I beg, a passing word;
But as Thou dwell'st with Thy disciples, Lord,
Familiar, condescending, patient, free.
Come not to sojourn, but abide with me.
Come not in terrors, as the King of kings,
But kind and good, with healing in Thy wings,
Tears for all woes, a heart for every plea —
Come, Friend of sinners, and thus bide with me.
Thou on my head in early youth didst smile;
And, though rebellious and perverse meanwhile,
Thou hast not left me, oft as I left Thee,
On to the close, O Lord, abide with me.
I need Thy presence every passing hour.
What but Thy grace can foil the tempter's power?
Who, like Thyself, my guide and stay can be?
Through cloud and sunshine, Lord, abide with me.
I fear no foe, with Thee at hand to bless;
Ills have no weight, and tears no bitterness.
Where is death's sting? Where, grave, thy victory?
I triumph still, if Thou abide with me.
Hold Thou Thy cross before my closing eyes;
Shine through the gloom and point me to the skies.
Heaven's morning breaks, and earth’s vain shadows flee;
In life, in death, O Lord, abide with me.

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Moments of Madness
5/03/08

Moments of madness get hold of me .At that time i feel desperate. I would feel stuck caught cant do anything.Just madness .Desperation that makes me feel so insane.Some feeling of something flowing through my head.Cant understand what it is but it leads to desparation. Is it the tip of the iceberg or just common desperation . I know i need help but where can i go. Who will i go to . Its like how saul used to feel a moment of madness and desperation i guess, How do i deal with it or react to it :)- I am on a high without getting drugged. Emotional high which pulls me down low . Cant face any problem want to run away from it .Dude i am gone crazy.Only God can help me .

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Sunday October 29, 2006

Oh what a fool am i

what i want i do not do and what i do not want to do i do

i want to do this and that i want to be nice to people but i am not able to be all that i want to be

all that i want is not what i've got

All in pain and in vain living a life thats as Good as chasing the sun

Trying to make sense but it sounds like non sense

Working to be better but ending up bitter

Trying to be a winner but ending up as a whiner

Oh what is this life ive lived i really dont

Please do try understand the matter

i m typing this with great anguish

Oh lord wont u understand my position

Selfish as i am trying to work out my salvation

Lord help me to be all that u want me to be

But its too tough to go beyond the first step

I m trying to make sense by my endless escape routes

Hoping tomorow will be better

But why doesnt it make no sense

Pain is too much to bear

People really dont care

They are all about themself

but so am i

i try to do be nice

but they take it for granted

i try to be holy ppl take me to be a dolly

oh its tough

it does not make sense to me

i dont know what to do

i took my cycle and traveled far and wide

expection that that moment of madness will never ever return

But the great part of maddness keeps haunting me back

Hurting those i love the most

thats the most painful part

i m trying to be nice

but i hurt them more often than not

i did reconcile

but the hurt will still remain

Lord its u who has to help to take away the pain

and i apologise to all with all my heart for all the pain

caused because of my madness

i want to love u with all my heart

but my love for u is not deep enough

i m gone mad and crazy yes

Whos gonna help me out of the wretch i am in

Lord help me lord

i m in miry clay

when u gonna pull me out of this shit i a m in

Take away the madness that haunts me

day and night

and help me to love

just as u love me now

:)

Please put sense in me
to be a better person lord

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Brittle clay i am, in the tender hands of my master.

God is working and molding my dreams and my attitude.I hold certain things dear to me and i have asked for it. I am not claiming it. I know, he who created me knows the best. Just as he said, i ve asked him for something. When a child asks his father for bread, will his father give him a stone? I also know that when a child, out of poor judgment,does ask for a stone, the Father will not give him the stone, but will educate him gently and slowly. Similarly i believe God is working with me in every step that i take slowly, but steadily working in me.The process is tough, the wait is long. Every moment u anticipate his response.But i can see he has brought me this far and i know he has made me a better person through the journey. I've learned a lot .Even if i don't get what i ve asked for i know that i've come a long way. And i know that i am in the tender hands of my Master.

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FROZEN THOUGHTS

Sometimes I just feel like, quittin I still might
Why do I put up this fight, why do I still write
Sometimes it's hard enough just dealin with real life
to just stand up, and travel new grounds
really just take matters into our own hands
We gotta live it to feel it, you didn't you wouldn't get it
I don't want pity from no one, this is no fun
Just for the years
Just for the laughter, Just for the tears,
Let's seize the moment try to freeze it and own it,

squeeze it and hold it
Cause we consider these minutes golden
And maybe they'll admit it when we're gone
Just let our spirits live on, through our performance

Where ever tomorrow the good Lord may take us away...

"It is not the critic who counts;

not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles,

or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.

The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena,

whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood;

who strives valiantly; who errs,

and comes short again and again,

because there is no effort without error and shortcoming;

but who does actually strive to do the deeds;

who knows the great enthusiasms, the great devotions;

who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best

knows in the end the triumph of high achievement,

and who at the worst, if he fails,

at least fails while daring greatly,

so that his place shall never be with those cold

and timid souls who know neither victory nor defeat."