Saturday, November 28, 2009

The Present Crisis

The Present Crisis
WHEN a deed is done for Freedom, through the broad earth's aching breast
Runs a thrill of joy prophetic, trembling on from east to west,
And the slave, where'er he cowers, feels the soul within him climb
To the awful verge of manhood, as the energy sublime
Of a century bursts full-blossomed on the thorny stem of Time. 5
Through the walls of hut and palace shoots the instantaneous throe,
When the travail of the Ages wrings earth's systems to and fro;
At the birth of each new Era, with a recognizing start,
Nation wildly looks at nation, standing with mute lips apart,
And glad Truth's yet mightier man-child leaps beneath the Future's heart. 10
So the Evil's triumph sendeth, with a terror and a chill,
Under continent to continent, the sense of coming ill,
And the slave, where'er he cowers, feels his sympathies with God
In hot tear-drops ebbing earthward, to be drunk up by the sod,
Till a corpse crawls round unburied, delving in the nobler clod. 15
For mankind are one in spirit, and an instinct bears along,
Round the earth's electric circle, the swift flash of right or wrong;
Whether conscious or unconscious, yet Humanity's vast frame
Through its ocean-sundered fibres feels the gush of joy or shame;—
In the gain or loss of one race all the rest have equal claim. 20
Once to every man and nation comes the moment to decide,
In the strife of Truth with Falsehood, for the good or evil side;
Some great cause, God's new Messiah, offering each the bloom or blight,
Parts the goats upon the left hand, and the sheep upon the right,
And the choice goes by forever 'twixt that darkness and that light. 25
Hast thou chosen, O my people, on whose party thou shalt stand,
Ere the Doom from its worn sandals shakes the dust against our land?
Though the cause of Evil prosper, yet 't is Truth alone is strong,
And, albeit she wander outcast now, I see around her throng
Troops of beautiful, tall angels, to enshield her from all wrong. 30
Backward look across the ages and the beacon-moments see,
That, like peaks of some sunk continent, jut through Oblivion's sea;
Not an ear in court or market for the low, foreboding cry
Of those Crises, God's stern winnowers, from whose feet earth's chaff must fly;
Never shows the choice momentous till the judgment hath passed by. 35
Careless seems the great Avenger; history's pages but record
One death-grapple in the darkness 'twixt old systems and the Word;
Truth forever on the scaffold, Wrong forever on the throne,—
Yet that scaffold sways the future, and, behind the dim unknown,
Standeth God within the shadow, keeping watch above his own. 40
We see dimly in the Present what is small and what is great,
Slow of faith how weak an arm may turn the iron helm of fate,
But the soul is still oracular; amid the market's din,
List the ominous stern whisper from the Delphic cave within,—
"They enslave their children's children who make compromise with sin." 45
Slavery, the earth-born Cyclops, fellest of the giant brood,
Sons of brutish Force and Darkness, who have drenched the earth with blood,
Famished in his self-made desert, blinded by our purer day,
Gropes in yet unblasted regions for his miserable prey;—
Shall we guide his gory fingers where our helpless children play? 50
Then to side with Truth is noble when we share her wretched crust,
Ere her cause bring fame and profit, and 't is prosperous to be just;
Then it is the brave man chooses, while the coward stands aside,
Doubting in his abject spirit, till his Lord is crucified,
And the multitude make virtue of the faith they had denied. 55
Count me o'er earth's chosen heroes,—they were souls that stood alone,
While the men they agonized for hurled the contumelious stone,
Stood serene, and down the future saw the golden beam incline
To the side of perfect justice, mastered by their faith divine,
By one man's plain truth to manhood and to God's supreme design. 60
By the light of burning heretics Christ's bleeding feet I track,
Toiling up new Calvaries ever with the cross that turns not back,
And these mounts of anguish number how each generation learned
One new word of that grand Credo which in prophet-hearts hath burned
Since the first man stood God-conquered with his face to heaven upturned. 65
For Humanity sweeps onward: where to-day the martyr stands,
On the morrow crouches Judas with the silver in his hands;
Far in front the cross stands ready and the crackling fagots burn,
While the hooting mob of yesterday in silent awe return
To glean up the scattered ashes into History's golden urn. 70
'T is as easy to be heroes as to sit the idle slaves
Of a legendary virtue carved upon our fathers' graves,
Worshippers of light ancestral make the present light a crime;—
Was the Mayflower launched by cowards, steered by men behind their time?
Turn those tracks toward Past or Future, that made Plymouth Rock sublime? 75
They were men of present valor, stalwart old iconoclasts,
Unconvinced by axe or gibbet that all virtue was the Past's;
But we make their truth our falsehood, thinking that hath made us free,
Hoarding it in mouldy parchments, while our tender spirits flee
The rude grasp of that great Impulse which drove them across the sea. 80
They have rights who dare maintain them; we are traitors to our sires,
Smothering in their holy ashes Freedom's new-lit altar-fires;
Shall we make their creed our jailer? Shall we, in our haste to slay,
From the tombs of the old prophets steal the funeral lamps away
To light up the martyr-fagots round the prophets of to-day? 85
New occasions teach new duties; Time makes ancient good uncouth;
They must upward still, and onward, who would keep abreast of Truth;
Lo, before us gleam her camp-fires! we ourselves must Pilgrims be,
Launch our Mayflower, and steer boldly through the desperate winter sea,
Nor attempt the Future's portal with the Past's blood-rusted key. 90

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Times Have Changed

Times Have Changed And Times Are Strange
here I Come, But I Ain't The Same
i Could Be Right, I Could Be Wrong
hurts So Bad, It's Been So Long
yeah, You Had Me Hypnotized
lost And Found And Turned Around

Focus Lost
Paradise Lost
Runaway Kid
Nothing seems to be clear
everything seems to be too Strange
Life changed Head over heels in the short time
Opportunities slipped out of Hand
Things tat just passed out
Thats an SE for u
Constantly fighting with Boredom
and Anxiety
Never made it as a wise man
I've been wrong, I've been down

But
If I let you get your hands on my heart
I knew there'd be changes you would want in me
You'd frighten me.
You'd let down my guard.
'cause I knew how easilly my heart can break.
But the fear started fading as I have begun to see
There's beauty all created
and you knew what's best for me.

Well it hurts as you're remolding my dreams
And that you're reshaping all my attitudes.
It's hard to feel that every change means
that little by little
I am more like you.
So I embrace your risen come
when I see what you've done
I can't deny your wisdom or how far you've come.


Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Abide with me

Abide with me; fast falls the eventide;
The darkness deepens; Lord with me abide.
When other helpers fail and comforts flee,
Help of the helpless, O abide with me.
Swift to its close ebbs out life’s little day;
Earth's joys grow dim; its glories pass away;
Change and decay in all around I see;
O Thou who changest not, abide with me.
Not a brief glance I beg, a passing word;
But as Thou dwell'st with Thy disciples, Lord,
Familiar, condescending, patient, free.
Come not to sojourn, but abide with me.
Come not in terrors, as the King of kings,
But kind and good, with healing in Thy wings,
Tears for all woes, a heart for every plea —
Come, Friend of sinners, and thus bide with me.
Thou on my head in early youth didst smile;
And, though rebellious and perverse meanwhile,
Thou hast not left me, oft as I left Thee,
On to the close, O Lord, abide with me.
I need Thy presence every passing hour.
What but Thy grace can foil the tempter's power?
Who, like Thyself, my guide and stay can be?
Through cloud and sunshine, Lord, abide with me.
I fear no foe, with Thee at hand to bless;
Ills have no weight, and tears no bitterness.
Where is death's sting? Where, grave, thy victory?
I triumph still, if Thou abide with me.
Hold Thou Thy cross before my closing eyes;
Shine through the gloom and point me to the skies.
Heaven's morning breaks, and earth’s vain shadows flee;
In life, in death, O Lord, abide with me.

Monday, January 26, 2009

Frozen Thoughts 004

Moments of Madness
5/03/08

Moments of madness get hold of me .At that time i feel desperate. I would feel stuck caught cant do anything.Just madness .Desperation that makes me feel so insane.Some feeling of something flowing through my head.Cant understand what it is but it leads to desparation. Is it the tip of the iceberg or just common desperation . I know i need help but where can i go. Who will i go to . Its like how saul used to feel a moment of madness and desperation i guess, How do i deal with it or react to it :)- I am on a high without getting drugged. Emotional high which pulls me down low . Cant face any problem want to run away from it .Dude i am gone crazy.Only God can help me .

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Frozen Thoughts 003

Sunday October 29, 2006

Oh what a fool am i

what i want i do not do and what i do not want to do i do

i want to do this and that i want to be nice to people but i am not able to be all that i want to be

all that i want is not what i've got

All in pain and in vain living a life thats as Good as chasing the sun

Trying to make sense but it sounds like non sense

Working to be better but ending up bitter

Trying to be a winner but ending up as a whiner

Oh what is this life ive lived i really dont

Please do try understand the matter

i m typing this with great anguish

Oh lord wont u understand my position

Selfish as i am trying to work out my salvation

Lord help me to be all that u want me to be

But its too tough to go beyond the first step

I m trying to make sense by my endless escape routes

Hoping tomorow will be better

But why doesnt it make no sense

Pain is too much to bear

People really dont care

They are all about themself

but so am i

i try to do be nice

but they take it for granted

i try to be holy ppl take me to be a dolly

oh its tough

it does not make sense to me

i dont know what to do

i took my cycle and traveled far and wide

expection that that moment of madness will never ever return

But the great part of maddness keeps haunting me back

Hurting those i love the most

thats the most painful part

i m trying to be nice

but i hurt them more often than not

i did reconcile

but the hurt will still remain

Lord its u who has to help to take away the pain

and i apologise to all with all my heart for all the pain

caused because of my madness

i want to love u with all my heart

but my love for u is not deep enough

i m gone mad and crazy yes

Whos gonna help me out of the wretch i am in

Lord help me lord

i m in miry clay

when u gonna pull me out of this shit i a m in

Take away the madness that haunts me

day and night

and help me to love

just as u love me now

:)

Please put sense in me
to be a better person lord

Monday, January 19, 2009

Frozen Thoughts 002

Brittle clay i am, in the tender hands of my master.

God is working and molding my dreams and my attitude.I hold certain things dear to me and i have asked for it. I am not claiming it. I know, he who created me knows the best. Just as he said, i ve asked him for something. When a child asks his father for bread, will his father give him a stone? I also know that when a child, out of poor judgment,does ask for a stone, the Father will not give him the stone, but will educate him gently and slowly. Similarly i believe God is working with me in every step that i take slowly, but steadily working in me.The process is tough, the wait is long. Every moment u anticipate his response.But i can see he has brought me this far and i know he has made me a better person through the journey. I've learned a lot .Even if i don't get what i ve asked for i know that i've come a long way. And i know that i am in the tender hands of my Master.